Salvation
Sunday, August 22, 2010, 9:47 PM
Welcome back people to my blog.
I apologise for not posting anything for the past idk how long now.
I've been really busy with ns.
So here i am now, trying to update something.
It's been pretty much hectic this few months.
I've seen,heard,experienced alot of happiness,sorrow and pain.
Lost a few, gained a few and yet i'm still empty.
There may be some obstacles i've yet to clear but imma just lay low for now.
I'm pretty much given up hope on finding anything.
Finding that missing piece in life.
Finding that special someone.
Finding my own purpose in life.
I hate how things always turn out bad no matter how much precautions i've taken to ensure nothing ever goes wrong.
Why in the world must people hate me??
What in the world have i done to you people??
And seriously i'm getting really pissed off with people who come and go.
You people think i'm a help desk is it?
But all in all, there are still some people who still make me smile.
My damn fun homies.
They are the one's that are always there for me.
Yes, they may be irritating at times but they still stick through thick and thin.
I'm pretty glad that things are gradually progressing for everyone.
I guess im just gonna sit back and have myself a drink while i watch the world move past.
Labels: I hate how your lips still taste sweet
280510
Friday, May 28, 2010, 12:09 AM
Apparent things have been going on this past few weeks.
Things between us have heated up to a point where it's unbearable.
My life, my story, my world.
It's slowly becoming more hectic.
More time consuming.
Like a wick slowly burning out.
I just hope today things would be settled.
I'd really want things to be set straight.
For me, my friends and for future events happening.
Till my next post..
Labels: The devil within
To my lil lion princess
Saturday, May 22, 2010, 9:20 PM
At first, i was very reluctant to meet you due to certain reasons.
I was afraid that i wouldn't click well with you.
But after awhile, hanging out and so forth.
We actually got closer weeks after weeks.
I was happy that we were getting closer.
The first time we hugged before saying our goodbyes.
The first time you rested your head on my chest.
All those morning/night text and calls.
I appreciate all that you've done for me.
Rushing through your hectic schedule just to meet me and all.
But i came to realize that no matter how hard i try,
i can never reach into your heart.
It's as though a brick wall was placed there.
No matter how much i try to break down that wall,
I'd only end up bruising myself.
I'm afraid that things wouldn't go the way i hoped for.
But you would always be there, somehow reassuring me that theres still hope.
After today's event, i thought we could go much closer to each other.
But my fears finally came true.
You uttered those words, without emotions.
"You're getting annoying".
I was stunned,shocked and baffled.
Why would you suddenly say that sentence to me?
When i've never even done anything wrong to you.
That sentence although short.
Is still being played in my mind.
Like a record player on playback.
Like i said before.
I'm afraid things would turn out worse.
I'm afraid that i'd get hurt in the end.
This tiger's heart has a very fragile spot.
And you managed to get a direct hit on that particular spot with your words.
I'm afraid that if things were to still continue.
I may have fallen deeply in love with you.
And i'm afraid that when love comes, despair will follow suit.
Before anything worser happens, i'd rather we stop all this.
If you don't see the same vision about us then we'd better stop fooling ourselves.
I'm afraid lion.
Afraid that this poor tiger's heart will not be able to take another fatal blow.
Labels: Do we or do we not
